14 April 2006


I forgot to bring my belt to work today so things are a little loose and I thought I'd bring you up to speed.

First, insecurity. I told my brother that when I teach English to children, I am always nervously watching the door because I am sure someone is going to show up and say, *Okay, show's over. We know you're a sham* and I'm just going to pack up and leave because I know it's true. I don't know who this person is, but I imagine they look sort of like Jack Abramoff in a trenchcoat. What I mean to say, my business is not going well. Week Two showed no improvement over week one. Little M chan spent the whole time not paying attention to me and trying to leave the room while little S kun's mother looked on disapprovingly. What am I supposed to do, S kun's mother? Seriously. I thought that by ditching the class I hated the most, I would get rid of teaching classes I hated. Well, the cosmos works itself out.

Second, the shrink. I'm going to talk a shrink next week, but I'm less convinced than I was on Monday that there's a serious problem. That's good, I think. One of my friends was telling me how you can read something and convince yourself that you have a problem, when you don't, in fact, have whatever disease you're reading about (like the *klap.*) That said, a second opinion will set my heart at ease.

In 86 days, I will be able to reduce a great deal of stress in the most fabulous, guilt-free ways. I imagine that will be helpful too.

Lastly, I rode my bike to work all week and now my legs are huge. Like machines. Bike riding machines. I asked Yoko if I can buy a faster bike after we get married and she said that wouldn't be a problem.