17 September 2005

I wrote this to a friend about Yoko in September of 2005:

Not being able to understand her 100% was really bothering me until last night, when reading the Bible of all things at a Bible study of all places, we were reading John 6 and got to the part where the disciples were leaving Jesus and the twelve stayed because (Peter says), "Where else would we go? You have the words of eternal life." (I like how Eugene Peterson translates eternal life as true life.) Anyway, my friend Jim said, "It wasn't that they understood. They didn't understand Jesus. But they stayed because they were faithful. And that was the most important thing." This I related to my current spiritual situation, but also to my relationship with Yoko who, even though I sometimes don't understand her words, I can see what kind of person she is and have faith.

Faith. I didn't mean to use that word. What is faith.

Sufjan say,

"In the morning through the window shade
When the light pressed up against your shoulder blade
I could see what you were reading
Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications you could do without
When I kissed you on the mouth."

I suppose at one time in my life, I had true faith.